I usually do a link up for What Im Loving Wednesday...
But today took an ugly turn for the worse...
Ready for a real life mom to vent .. here goes..
Im sure i will remember this day.. but i dont want to forget what we went through today.
Im keeping it real in this blog post, because.. why not? I blog for myself and my family. To preserve memories and moments good and bad.
In short... I had to give my 8 month old an enema, and my 3 year old worked herself into hysterics at preschool and I had to go and pick her up...
Andrew was up every hour last night.
He hasnt pooped in more than a week...
We've tried prune juice, pear juice, karo syrup...everything
It was getting really bad though..
Long story short... I was planning on getting him an enema after dropping SJ off at school.
I get a call from her school about 10 minutes into my ride to Walmart.
She was crying hysterically, and the teachers asked if I would come back and sit in the room since she was that upset. My heart just crumbled. My baby.. upset and scared.. but WHY? everything was going so smoothly... all of the sudden she doesnt like school? what was it?
I dropped Andrew off at home with Daddy (thank god he was working from home today)
I comforted her and sat in her classroom... but I had to leave after a while. Daddy called and A was screaming in pain.. I needed to get his medicine.
When it rains it pours.
I ran home.. fed him and he fell asleep.
I took SJ and went to get the medicine.
Came home.. told her to go play.. I gave her the ipad and turned on some Taylor Swift.. (she loves the song "Mean"...) and she was playing content on the 3rd floor.
Daddy and I gave A the enema.
Now if you've ever given one.. holy lord it is awful.. awful for EVERYONE INVOLVED.
He was screaming, I was tearing up, and feeling so badly that I was inflicting pain on my infant.
After I held him, he cried and cried and pushed and pushed..
Finally he is now sleeping sound at 10pm.. hopefully for the night.
So one baby was taken care of...for the moment.
Back to my SJ.
I spoke with her teacher and we devised a plan.
My Motherly instinct is telling me that she is just getting used to the classroom setting.
She's had encounters where kids have maybe been a little harsh about sharing, or taking turns, and listening to the teacher, and not wanting to do something, seeing other kids crying, fighting, not knowing how to share yet. She told me the other day that someone pushed her away and said "NO".. and then she said "I was nervous Mama, I missed you"...
BREAK. MY. HEART.....
These are all reasons why she is there.
But I think she's nervous (as she openly told me today)
She's nervous about confrontation with other kids.. and interaction.
Because up to this point she's never had to defend herself or really work out a problem with another kid in a classroom setting.
I feel so open and I know Im putting myself out there.
This post is half venting and half worrying.
Motherhood is the hardest job around.
And its hard after a day like today not to feel lost and like you are failing.
I am praying on it for a better day I suppose, and hoping that this too shall pass.
Its just a phase.
With Andrew:
More Prunes, Plums, Peaches, Greens..
With Samantha:
It wont be that easy.. I think its gonna take some time and patience.
Today was not such a good day.
Im trying to keep my head up.
I love my babies so much and it pains my heart to see them hurt in any way.
Tomorrow is another day... but im SOO glad today is OVER!!!
This Mama is headed for B.E.D!